My 2009

So, it has been one year since I started this blog. It was a totally random idea of recording my own life through a blog. Well, happy belated birthday to my blog. It was a tough journey for me to keep this blog on going. Kinda happy to see I wrote so much which will be records for me to know my present life when I am old. So, back to the topic...... Yeah, 2009 will soon be no more and 2010 will be on the calender in two more days. I felt sad for the year of 2009 will soon be gone. Looking back to my previous posts, I found myself lived a tough year. Below will be the flashback of significant events during my 2009.

January

I started my January by celebrating my birthday with two of my great friends who actually went all the way from KL to Seremban just to cheer with me. It was a great day as that was the first time ever to have friends came for my birthday. I was so touched and it will be a day which I will not forget!

February

Had a new semester with some new faces but soon lotz disappeared...... This is the semester which I learned about 3D. Sad to say, I couldn't get to have MAYA since I get into the school one semester earlier. Gosh...... Also, I had the most boring and stupid Chinese New Year as I couldn't celebrate with my "entire" family. It was a great pain in heart......

March

Tons of assignment and I always burn midnight oil until morning...... I couldn't get enough sleep but I had joy doing all those works. I gained interest in After Effect thanks to Mauroof. I did some really crazy works. The Mtv was a pain in ass.

April

10th of April 2009, it was the greatest and happiest day in my life as I did something really out of expectation! This will remain as a secret in my heart! Forever! I thank god for that day!

May

Rushed, rushed and rushed more for my assignments! I did not sleep for four days which broke the previous record. Holy crap, I was not in shape after the submission. Haha, I enjoy it though!

June

Nothing...... I lived a months of eat and sleep life. And...... Michael Jackson is no more. I somehow believe he was trying to get lost from the society and get himself somewhere else by faking his own death. He is still alive!

July

Going back to the school...... I hate the Limkokwing admin! They are really slow and not systematic! However, we get a special section for animation students! Yeah, our own BAA lab!

August

Started my first 3D animation which was really fun and exciting! I found great interest in it and I wish to become better in the future. I also went to a book fair which I used to went with my brother all the time before he off to Tokyo. Miss him...... Watched Transformers 2 for the second time with mum in Seremban cinema. Wasn't a great movie since the story sucks and the tempo was too fast.

September

It was a month of Raya, but I only went back to hometown for two days. Mum was mad and yet I have no choice but to head back for my assignments. Many friends went out for fun. Envied...... Haha!

October

It was Halloween! Me and Jade designed a T-shirt for Steff! We threw a great party in Robin's place! To stop me from working more, Robin forced me to drink more than I could take. Poor me...... Still, it was a great party. We even invited one of our lecturers, but he didn't show up. Curse him......

November

Worked hard for assignment...... Me and my friend made a habit, which was to watch movie in cinema every Friday. Kinda cool, isn't it? This started from September and it stopped in November since we all need to work hard for assignments. Well, the semester also ended in November. I said good bye to my friends......

December

I went to Penang Island with my friend and we had lotz of lotz of joy in Penang Island. We did most of the travel with nothing but our feet. It was an awesome experience! I will never forget this amazing trip! Then, I send her off at the LCCT Airport. I also get to watch the greatest movie in the past ten years! I watched Avatar twice! First one in normal cinema, second one in cinema with goggles! Haha, 3D was fun and amazing! It was a great show!

That's my 2009, without my blog, I will never able to remember these things without missing one or two of them! I am so glad that I started this blog! This might be the last post in 2009. I shall get myself ready for 2010. I certainly wish it will be a better year! God bless me!

Avatar!

Haha, I watched Avatar yesterday! It is the best movie in 2009! I do not know what to say but, I really love this movie! James Cameron is the best! Wohoo, I will watch it again tomorrow! Haha!

Talking to Myself......

You know what? One good thing about creating your own blog is to have a place where you can actually shout out shits of your life, hoping someone would have seen it and pay attention to your life. In fact, it isn't. Coz most people thought there are hundred of people reading craps from their blogs and found those issues of their crappy life worth for laughs, but the true is, there is simply to many blogs on net and your blog (including mine) is only a no man reading website.

I found myself uploading stuffs on net and none of my friends reply me. Well, I have to admit that my blog is quite boring. I sometimes treat my blog as a sand bag just for me to release my anger as well as sharing joy. Haha, I guess I am still talking to myself, but never mind, It will be something for me to read about my own life when I get old! Hahahaha......

Lady In The Dust

I made this artwork just about three or four hours ago. It was something I did as a practice. I was kinda bored at the moment and really have nothing to do, so I decided to do something just to get rid of the lame feeling. Well, at first I did not have any idea of what I was doing. After a while of suiting myself to the mood, I created this artwork. I like this kind of hoody costume, sort of like Arabian women clothes. They show only their eyes and which is why I attracted to this costume. They are so mystery...... Haha, so this Lady In The Dust is something for me to test up my skill. However, I found myself stucked in the same spot as I notice there is not much improvement of my works. Anyway, I hope I can start to becoming productive and at the same time inspired to get idea for my coming semester's final project.

I hope this artwork can lead me to my target. Meanwhile, I really need to get myself a part tume job...... I want a job...... Haiz......

All of A Sudden......

All of the sudden, I felt really angry...... kinda pissed because of this damn world. I saw news about innocent people got killed in suicide bombing action, old men and women got conned, young girls raped and houses busted by some dick heads. Fuck this world! For a short moment, I really wish that Death Note does exit! Fuck the stupid laws and justice!

I personally think this shit hole where we live in need not present laws and rules, but brutal judgments toward those rubbishes of the society. If I get to execute a stupid murderer like one of those suicide bombers, I will give them the most brutal execution ever. I hate those corrupted politicians, polices and of course cheaters around us.

God, please! Why must we trapped with a bunch of nerds who will kill and harm other innocent people? I simply think there must be something to be done for us to get rid of these ass holes. I am starting to feel irritated and weary to this world......

Making A Christmas Notice For Aunty

Merry Christmas
(only with the events titles missing)

So, today...... Ergh, suppose to be yesterday...... I helped my aunty to design a christmas notice for her pub. Guess it's my first commission...... without pay of coz. Haha, I dun mind! At least I get to be useful to my family. So, there's nothing much original on this notice thingy. I used few photos, pictures as well as filters to achieves the effects. Trust me, it sure looks like a ad for Coca Cola! Haha, it was fun doing this! Too bad I can't upload this on DA since it's not 100% original. At least it is against my own code!

Hopefully, this tiny thing will help to promote my stuff in the future and some people will eventually need my help! Haiz...... I really have no idea what to do in Christmas Eve. I am not getting any presents from friends...... =____=|||

I really need to get a part time job......

X'Mas Will Be Around In No Time!

6 days before Christmas! All boys and girls come and cheer and share! F*CK...... I'm in Seremban and I can say it's one of the most boring city in Peninsula of Malaysia...... Well, I will have no Christmas Party nor countdown events during new year eve. Guess it is always my destiny to stay quietly at home. I saw quite lotz of Christmas decoration sales in market with no buyers. Haha, guess Seremban people don't like Christmas!

This morning I received a reply from a children art class, which informed me that they only accept full time tutor and no part timer. They want someone who can teach for at least a year. 0~0 Wtf...... I knew I shouldn't had pay full attention to this vacancy. Well, guess i should get some other jobs. Taking commission and online works ain't choices for me since I have no confident of creating good work for the client......

Hopefully I can get a job in Terminal One......

I also missed CF a.k.a Comic Fiesta due to the transportation problem. Sorry dudes, I just failed you guys...... Haha, I also haven't finish my piece since I knew I couldn't make it to CF. Haha...... I'm slacking...... =____=

废人般的生活......

放假了，孩子们可能会很开心...... 可是对于我来说，放假只是让我浪费时间的借口。很多时候会想起之前决定要做的事情，可是放假的时候却偏偏不想去做。也许是逃避把？我常被别人说是努力的专家，可是真实的我其实是一个懒虫。哈哈，很矛盾！

梦想还没实现，就因为环境的因素我无法一圆我的梦。在执著与牺牲两个选择中，我选了牺牲... 慢慢的变成了放弃。世界不明白我，我也不要求世界理解我。我常想起那美好的梦想，可是睁开眼睛就知道，现实是那么的不公平。算了，路还是要走下去。

也许，我真的应该下决心去干些事情......

Hello Penang!

George Town View From Penang Hill

Been a while since last posted something on blog. I just came back from P.Penang. Well, actually it's about a week ald. Haha, it was a good trip as me and my friend get to have a chance of becoming backpack travelers. It was a four day trip and guess what, we did most of the traveling with feet. Me and my friend walked across the entire Penang island in one day. Actually it was only the north part of the P.Penang.

The entire trip was all about eat and eat. We ate most of the famous foods in Penang and of coz did lotz of stupid stuffs (not gonna tell u). We stayed in Tune Hotel and got ourselves some really cozy beds at night.

I got tons of story to tell if you ask about our experience. We also met a Korean girl who traveled from Korea to Cambodia to India and finally to Malaysia. We were impressed as she carried a damn huge back pack and yet she refuse to take any taxi but public transportation. Impressive......

Throughout the trip, I can see myself grow up to be an independent adult as I no longer need anyone to plan the day for me. I made decisions and of coz did lotz of try out and finally I succeeded this trip with my friend. Haha, I will soon upload photos on Face Book. But now, I shall take my rest and get myself some good sleep......

2012 (Again)

So, two days ago, I finished my last assignment and decided to hang out with my friends in Sunway Pyramid. It was almost 6.30 in the evening. We were too relax and starting to wonder how to spent the time. Haha, we had our dinner in Shogun and had our tummies filled with lotz of sushi(s)! Since it was a buffet, we basically stuffed as full as we can before we left the restaurant for a movie. Yeah, I stated before that I do not like 2012, but still, I went for it only to see the effect.

The entire movie was very predictable, and lack of explanation. You can simply spot the shadow of the Day After Tomorrow. I do not like the structure of the story, at least the way they promote the few main countries contributed their power to build the Arks. Haha, the main character is simply too superman and believe me you will agree with me if you watch the film. The American Heroism is too heavy within the film and I really don't like the part where the president of United State mentioned, "I will be the last president of America". Dude, that guy is a black guy and of coz most of you would had understand what the director meant!

I have to say, the effect is nice and I cannot complain much on it since it is a multimillion budgeted film. The particles are astonishing...... If you want to see the effect, go ahead. 2012 is the choice for u.

And yeah, Happy Holiday to all BAA students.

I'm an Animator

been working on a same piece of work for weeks and still stuck in the same point...... T_T

recently been thinking, working on environment is not really my profession, I kinda miss doing animation. I don't like to place stuffs in composition, but rather to move a character around. The only thing satisfied me in my piece of work is the animation of birds. I spent less then 3 hours to do it and it works perfectly. but then, most of the stuffs in my env are just too plain and I really feel like giving up. Wonder if can get good comment or not. I hate to say that, but I am pissed off by my own design. WTF!

...... (Deep breathing)

back to work.

2012

The hottest issue of the current is the movie of 2012. Haven't watch the film yet, but been hearing a lot of discussion of this film on net. People been talking about the recording of the ancient calender, blah blah blah...... lotz of crazy symptoms of forecasting the end of the world, this and that.

So, do u think there will be a Armageddon in 2012? Honestly, I don't. I personally think it is a kind of promoting technique from the Hollywood. They got this idea of making another Day After Tomorrow kind of film and simply get the idea of combining all those ancient discovery, predictions and phenomenons and together make out a film of disaster. Later on, they used back all this information, and spread out the news of these Earth dooming stuff on net to tell people this film is telling the truth. What a good technique. Most people would have fall for this trap and pay for the ticket. I am kinda irritated by Hollywood people because of the way of promoting this film. They are making global chaos and panic with a film. Tons of people believe that 2012 will be the last year of theirs on Earth. If you read news, many disaster happened (human made). These stupid people believed the film and are now doing stuffs they would like to do before their death.

Don't you guys think it's a bit weird? I've been living on Earth for 20 years and I had not been given any news of the doom of the Earth before the year of 2008. Isn't it a bit too slow for us to know that 3 years later will be the doom of the entire human civilization? These no use Hollywood people dug out the old news of the Maya calender only to promote the film.

Anyway, I will still go for the movie since the effect is nice. The water particles are crazy and I really want to learn that.

Jennifer's Body

So long didn't update my journal...... -____-||| Been busy like hell!

Yesterday, I went to IOI and watched one of the "suckiest" movie of 2009. So, I arrived at IOI around 2 something and found out the releasing date for 2012 is today. Shit...... Looking for another movie for replacement, I had to pick between Jennifer's Body and The Time Traveler Wife. Well, since I really don't like novel bade movie, I took JB as my choice and i bought a large popcorn before the movie started. It was a high school terror movie, sort of like a low budgeted movie. Well, I can see people around me came in just to see Megan Fox.

The movie was kinda suck, I don't like the way they end the story. There was no ghost busting in the movie and the heroine so sudden became super human and was able to fight the demon easily. Yeah, I pity Chipp who was killed in the movie and the way the Low Shoulder brothers sacrificed Jennifer. The part where Jennifer slipped into the heroine house was nice and spooky as well. Haha, no idea why in the hell Megan Fox would take part in such a film...... It kinda make her looks "cheap" in the movie. Seriously, I did not enjoy the show. But 6 dollar for a show in cinema was a not bad deal! ^^lll

Well, if you guys like high school terror, u may try it out! But I warned u, it's not a nice show! -_____-lll

Happy Birthday Steff

Happy Bleated Birthday and Happy Coming Halloween to Steff!

Happy belated birthday to Steff. Trick or Treat in Halloween. Did this for quite some time and now only feel like posting it. So, hope u will like it. Neh, btw u not gonna browse my blog though.

So long didn't upload anything on my blog. My recent status is, I got myself into Facebook but found it super boring. -___-lll Just watched Pandorum. It was nice and out of my expectation, it is way so different from the impression of the poster. Recommend anyone who like zombie kind of movie to take a look. Burried under assignment at the moment and I just used $100+ last week. Emoing...... Well, hope this week will be better.

Some Weird Thoughts 2......

So, I was having some weird thoughts when I was having my dinner at a burger stall. I saw the burger guys work and work and work and serve the customers. Poeple might just say that these dude are just making little money by selling foods because they didn't went through proper education. I however felt kinda envy to their life but at the same time fear that this is gonna be my future. Sound stupid, huh? Well, let see this in this perspective:

Our life seems to be much more challenging and fulfilling compare to these burger men. But at the same time, , we students of design are dealing with both stress and competition.We are making money by stressing ourselves and race with time. Of course I understand that our path are significantly different, still I always have this thought of "why can't the making of animations be as simple as making burgers?" Haha, this is funny! My mum is a coffe shop runner and I used to work in the shop for quite a time. Maybe the reason why I have such a thought is all because of my past experiences of working in that coffee shop. I must say, it was quite relaxing (mentally not physically) to work in a coffee shop as there are not much limitation compare to works in office.

Like I said, I also kinda fear this is going to be my future. We live in a society with levels. People in upper level works in office, while lower level work in "Mamak" (no offence please). I've been working hard to get myself to the upper level and I sacrificed alot just to fulfill my dream. The problem is, I always get emotional and frustrated if things ain't not following my plans. These are the time when I wish I can just be a Mamak man. Haiz, kinda lame......

Well, these are just some weird thought and please do not take serious on it. Kaka!

Be Grateful and U Will be Better

These days, I found myself trapped in a state of "not so progressing". My footsteps are getting slower and slower and I somehow miss my days in the previous semester. I mean the semester when I was in the year of foundation. Ok, so, far until here you must be thinking, "ah, he complain again!" Read if you are comfortable with the topic else just ignore it.

I noticed, going to classes ain't as fun as it was back to the days. I was being optimistic toward almost every thing in the school. I'm a art student. Maybe it was because I was a total beginner for design and I was filled with great passion in doing my works and so was to meet my friends. Put it in this way, U give candies to a kid. Day by day, the taste of candy just ain't not changing much and yet the kid grow up and he learned. Soon he will find himself not liking it and he understand there are much better and sweeter candies out there which he had not taste before. I'm in that kind of situation at the moment (sorry for the lame metaphor).

Since life is getting "ciplak", I found myself a way to make life easier and funnier. Be grateful to the knowledge that I had learned in the school. I may not be attending the best classes ever, but at least I'm still on the track, seeking for my dream. I watch back my previous semester works when I was in the display room while doing my interview with the MQA people. I saw most of my works there. Though I have the copy but, I never browse. I saw my improvement. Really, for the first time, I am going to say this, I'm becoming better. I did not travel far, but the track and traces I made during the adventure is telling me "I'm working fine and steady".

Some Weird Thoughts......

Well, as usual, I did my assignment until very late this morning. I was kinda dizzy while handling the 3D thingy. It was a walk cycle animation for your information...... While doing this animation, my mind was somehow wondering around in my memory box a.k.a brain looking for some pieces of my childhood. I was happy while doing so as I thought of some funny thing I did with my bro...... but then, my mind went to the darkside, and I thought of all of my childhood and secondary school friends. to be very honest, i have lost most of my friends who I once call them pal. They are now nowhere to be found and even if I manage to see one, he or she might just give me a "do I know u" look. Well, I guess this is how we should go on. I now wonder if these university friends of mine would do the same years after the graduation. It's kinda hard to believe that friends next to you now might walk pass you as a total stranger. I could hardly imagine it. What I thought of now is like a melodrama of real life. Eventually, all of us will leave each other and will be too busy to even greet each other. After all, human ain't as humanity as they are said to be.

So, how about friends from net?

Coraline

Coraline By Benry Selick

Directed by Henry Selick, Coraline is truly an epic animation after Nightmare Before Christmas. Just a day ago, I watched this awesome animation along with my house mate. The first impression was, Wow, so Tim Burton. The style and settings are basically stuffs you will see in Tim Burton's production. However, the creepy plot is brilliant, and compare to Tim Burton's production, Coraline actually have a better story telling and it won't give away emptiness during the story. I like this animation very much and I have to say the style is what attracted me most. Those stop motion animations are just too nice to be animated. Well, I know those are 3D animation actually. The opening was awesome! The sewing hands and doll are just as creepy as the poster is. I can hardly find any bad comment for this animation from myself. The only thing that was lacked was the ending part. It was kinda too hasty, and I really want to know what happened to the The Other Mum.

Coraline, a good animation for people who like Nightmare Before Christmas.

Moon Cake Festival

So, yesterday was the Moon Cake Festival, Mid Autumn Festival or watever u call it. Me and my house mates spent a meaningless night without doing any significant things. I didn't even went to check out the moon. Lame...... Well, at least we had some, I mean very little moon cakes. I didn't go back Seremban due to some assignments. What a waste. My computer, again VIRUSED, due to some unknown auto updates, which mean I have to format again...... I hate format but sometimes, format bring some joy at least u will feel that, hey, my PC is getting faster or so on. I just hate to reinstall all those programs and softwares again. I hoping to upgrade my OS to Window 7 as I heard it's faster and less consuming RAM. Hope nothing bad gonna happen during the formating, else I'll be dead meat...... =_="

An Oasis

Yesterday (technically it was like few hours ago), I went out with Steff, Robin and Jade to IOI Mall. By right, me should be sitting down right in front of my computer and work on my assignments, but the feeling of being bored and locked made me and Jade feel like let's give it a break after one week of works. We went to IOI Mall right after the class, and we had a really filling lunch. We ate in a suppose to be Korean food restaurant (but the foods have nothing to do with Korea), Seoul Garden. It was a buffet and it was quite cheap after the student discount and we also had our chance to make our very first Ice Kacang. After the lunch, we went around and Robin bought a few games, then only we went to Robin place. Me and Jade were welcomed by the new member of Robin's family, Damien (hope I spell it right). He was a "little" black dog with short hair, and the tail whipped when it swung. And we finally saw the three new born kitten. They cute and Jade just couldn't let go of them from her hands. Since Robin and Stef were exhausted, they took a nap while me and Jade watch movies. Then, at night we went makan again. On the way back to Desa, I had a great stomachache, and the damn bus driver didn't drive us into Desa, instead, he just dumped us at the roadside, ended up we have to walk like 20 minutes and finally we were home. I hate Rapid KL after the raise of bus fee. Stupid Rapid company!

My Right Hand

Ever since the start of this semester, I can feel my right hand nerves problem is getting worse. My right hand has this problem, when I get overloaded with works, it will numb for like 30 minutes or more. It also happens randomly, and without any sign. I dun want to tell the story of how I got it...... It was not a good story. The problem got worse during the Raya Week. At first, I thought it was okay and fine as it didn't happen for a long time. But, about just a week ago, I realized the numbs came back and it happens rapidly. I can't grab my mouse well with my right hand and I can't draw properly. Whatever I do now is twice the time I used to do it. It hurts, and it is a nightmare to me as I cannot follow my own schedule of working. It is not the time for me to look for a doctor. I have to deal with my assignment before I can go for a check up. The last post on Deviant Art was something I try to use as a test to my hand and the result was I can't draw proper line, every thing will look distorted. Friends out there, this is not a joke and seriously, I'm really worry about my works.

Raya...... But no Holiday for Me......

It's Raya, people all go back for holidays and celebration. Most of my friends are having their holidays and plan to do something interesting and relaxing. I have no idea what kind of relaxation I;m going to have since my course is getting busier and busier as the time flows. So, I'll be going back to Seremban one hour later and come back in tomorrow evening. The rest of my holidays shall be packed with assignments and works...... TwT

I wish I can finish as much of my assignments as I can in this Raya week. Happy Raya to all Muslim friends of mine and Happy Holiday to all non-Muslim friends of mine. Drive safe, play safe, eat safe and sex safe...... Wth!?? I saw that on net...... randomly......

Losing Passion......

I can hardly feel there's any brain juice of mine within my brain. I keep losing passion on doing my assignment. Can't really see if there's any new ideas around to inspire me. The classes are just way too technical, none actually giv me the liberty to express my idea. Well, guess I'm being emo again. Bro going into a Japanese collage soon. Soon or late he will be able to work in one of those big ass company of games...... I really confused and keep wonder if I'll have the chance to do wat I want since the scholarship is binding me, tight...... Not to mention i hav to work for the school for three years. Ass hole!

I am confused and totally helpless. None actually understand my position and situation. I want to study in Canada but the tuition fee is just way too far from approachable. Not mention bro is entering a good school and all the money should go to him before me. I understand my family ability of supplying my education fee, but I am deeply depressed just to know that I will be going nowhere no matter how well I achieve. I guess I'm losing my guts and passion because of such issue. No point to work super hard since the result will be the same. I will still graduate in M'sia and get into work and that's all for my study......

I sometimes really get depressed why I'm stuck in M'sia while my brother get to go to Tokyo. But I know this should not be the issue for me to be envy of my brother. Now, I wish I at least get a happy study life in campus...... But, the distance between me and my friends is getting far. I kinda losing fate in my campus life now.

Book Fair

So, few days ago I just mentioned my intention of going to the book fair, and today (technically it's yesterday) I went to the book fair with my housemate. It wasn't a good event. Honestly, I can hardly feel any significant change of it from the past few times. Ok, it's much more systematic and you can say it's really better than the previous book fair. However, I really felt like the organizers did not arrange the section as the way of a book fair should be. It's way so difficult to get a single book you desire for. It was like shopping in Pasar Malam, where these booths are actually selling almost same kind of stuffs. I was looking for books and tutorial guide of 3D Max, but throughout the two or three hours in the convention hall, I was pretty much like wasting my time. At the end, I can only found less than ten books about the topic which I desire. Holly! Still, there was good thing happened. I somehow spotted few of my high school friends and we chatted for couple of minutes. That was so cool to me. I had not seen them for more than one year.
So, I bought a book of 3Ds Max which cost 56$ before discount and 44.8$ after discount. I considered it as a good result! It was a weary day and I really dun want to out for the next few weeks. I kinda miss my assignment now...... Strange?

My First 3D Animation!

So, this is my first 3D animation, bouncing ball. Used to did that back to 2D class, but this time it's much more challenging even with the aid of the software. Many of my friends did very creative works. i stick to the easy just to get the timing correct and much more believable. So, enjoy the "ball"! ^^

What Should I do?

I just bought a PSP and thank god for it, I am officially broke. But, who care? I enjoy my new console!

Still, I'm broke and guess what? The book fair is here! Holly mother! I just cannot resist this event! It will be a great chance for me to stock more books! However, there no way of buying any book if u have no money in your pocket. I'm toasted! I can still recall the good time when I used to go book fair with my brother. Thank god, he is in Japan now and he can buy all he can find...... if he has money! My housemate asked me to join him to the book fair. Though I said I will be going, but deep in my mind, I really don't feel like going. Damn it! If only there's some people who can sponsor me...... What should I do?

Books...... They do kill......

School......

So, after like two weeks of learning in this new semester, I can only give a one word comment, "BORED"! In this semester, I got only 5 subject which include no final. It was pretty awesome, at least not until I found myself lost interest in learning what I'm suppose to learn this semester. As expected, we were cheated. No MAYA...... Damn LIMKOKWING. None of the assignment seems to be interesting to be fulfilled. I get no mood of study or even attending class. I hope I can get rid of such attitude. So, the following is my subject and elaboration of each subjects requirement as well as assignment.

• Animation Practice 4: Nothing seems to be so different, except there is no more 2D drawings and Mr. Marvy...... which eventually made me feel uncomfortable. Guess what? We are doing basic animation with 3DS Max! +_+

• 3D Animation: A very similar subject to AP4, just that it focus more on constructing character. Then, why in the hell not just call it 3D modeling? We have to build a realistic man body. NAKED! No original design......

• 3D Environment and FX: Sound cool! We have to build a 3D environment and with water and bla bla bla natural setting. Kinda hard.
  

• Production 2: Holly, Cesar's class again...... I ain't gonna say anything about this. Just hope I'll enjoy the class.

• Research Methodology: Read, search, ask and write. Need to tell more?

That's it for my class. Nothing is so WOW and so I'm getting a bit disappointed. I really wish something caught my attention and eventually make me like my classes. Well, at least I got a new friend. A senior to me in all sort of terms.

Rojak 2

It's been a while since I last wrote something on this blog....... Finally, I got my own PSP! A black 3006 Play Station Portable! Yeepee! Thanks to grandmum, I finally got the money to buy this "toy"! So, I've been wasting my time playing Monster Hunter, a really awesome game which you actually play a role of a hunter in a simulated world of monsters!

Class started. As usual, the beginning is kinda relaxing as there ain't much works to be worried about. Honestly, I really don't like this semester. Why? I'll keep it a secret......

Nothing much to talk about my current life. Been doing a lot of useless stuffs and keeping myself busy with the game. Hopefully the assignments will eventually get me back to the track. Hopefully......

Doraemon Movie!

Doraemon: Nobita's New Adventure into the Magic Planet

It's been a while since I last wrote about Anime. Today, I watched a Doraemon Movie, which was a 2 hours length animated movie. How should I put this? Erm, this animated movie is something like a remake of an existed Doraemon Movie. According to the poster on top, fans of Doraemon should have figure out which series I meant. Alright, this is a nice movie. Nothing much I want to complaint about, however the story was editted and it's barely base on the original. The new version sure added a lot of new components and features, but it's merely satisfying the old fans of Doraemon (I'm one of them). The new movie skipped a lot of scene in the original story. I was much pissed as I was expecting the how well the new production team can handle the movie to be like. But still, if you treat this movie as a non relevant feature to the original, it's still a great movie. Man, I really love Doraemon......

Hope you guys get interest in this movie as well! It's a nice anime!

Sick......

It's been 2 days ald...... I've been feeling ill for 2 days......

Hey hey hey, I can guarantee it's not H1N1 for sure! Bloody hell, curse the stupid viruses infecting my throat making me coughing for few days!

Not feeling well now...... Update later......

Rojak

Ok, I just watched Transformers 2 for the second time in cinema. Me and my mum watched the show in Seremban Jusco. It was kind of strange to actually watch such movie with one of your parent. Lol, she was amazed by the CGI! After the show, we kinda shared the same opinion about the movie. Like, how sucks the story was, how cool were the robots and how stupid was the actors and actresses. Mum was like a curious child kept asking how were those CGIs done, and when will I learn those techniques. Wow, she was totally impressed by the awesomeness of current technology. I tell you what, the best way to make your parents agree with your choices is to show them the awesomeness of the works you are about to create!

We went for a Ramen meal right after the movie. It was a nice meal!

I checked my result online just a day before this. I can only say, I'm okay with the result I was given. Ok, and fine. I know some of my friends ain't getting the deserving results and I can absolutely understand how frustrated they are at the moment. But, there ain't nothing I can do with...... Friends, I know how well you guys did and I can say you guys deserve better result!

STUPID LIMKOKWING Admin!

Stupid Limkokwing admin! They so dumb until can't even update our results on the website. What in the hell they are paid for? Keep asking for money but services are just poorer than local non-private university! As if the website is nothing but a stupid decoration, there's no info of the coming activities of the campus. We are not informed bout the date of school start and even the registration. Shit! I just hate to admit I study in this stupid school. No wonder lotz of lecturers decided not to continue their career in this shit hole! Luckily our lecturers inform us about the date of registration, else we will not even go for the registration!

Here's the things I want to complain bout the campus! Read them if u care!

1. Poor facilities:
~We always got poor computers with no sufficient software and hardware.
~Only the game design students got nice PCs. It's so obvious the school want to show off!

2. No protection of students' works:
~Our works (especially Professional and Graphic Design students') are always dumped in
the storage as if they are meeting their dooms.
~Even if we get back our works, they always ended up like ikan masin......

3. Foods prices and choices:
~Students' foods are just too expensive and lack of choice.

4. No club activities:
~We have no significant club activities at all.
~Even if we have clubs, they are just as well as invisible.
~You can't even name a proper club's name because you will always doubt the existence of
it!

5. Only two semesters per year:
~We only got 2 sems and it's just way too rush to stuff sufficient knowledge into our brains.
~We need at least three semester to perfect our study! But the school will only says it's
following the international system! Stupid!

6. Poor admin:
~As I said, we paid the admin for nothing!!

There is still lotz for me to complain on, but I'll save them for next time.

A Gathering?!

After like... about six or seven weeks of holidays, the BAA friends of mine are finally decided to make a gathering. It will be a movie then dinner together. Me and my friend, Jade, the only classmate in Desa (currently) are having a hard time just to decide to go or not to go. Holly crap, I wish I got a car.

It is hell like just to go all the way from Desa Ria to One Utama. It costs a lot of money just for the transportation and not to mention the suffering dead heat in the buses. I hope there will be no rain course, if it does, I will be cursing around like a monkey yelling for its pants!

I hate to travel in KL with nothing but bus tickets. I always envy friends who have wheels there to be ride on, but...... for some of my friends they sure know why I can't drive. Trust me, it's more than just the problem of money.

Twitter

Let's Twitter! ^^

Just started Twitter few hours ago. Saw it on News Paper about the popularity of Twitter, even the President of United State (u know who) Twitter. It isn't a bombastic play stuff like blog or DA, more or less like a message box for u to tell friends of your current status and news. Just added Eichi17 as friend. Anyone who Twitter please add me.

Haiz, lately really bored...... so try to look for something to do, else will be rotten to death...... >w<

Simply type: neilwasabi in Find people and u will get me there to be one of your friends!

Life in Seremban

FEED ME~

• Life in Seremban is always less worry and relaxing.
• Eat, sleep and eat, the most indulging "activity" for students of design.
• My little Tommy is no longer little...... but he is still as annoying as he was.
• Currently, I am no watching any anime. Kinda strange.
• Kinda worry bout my result.
• No mood to ready for a new sem.
• I want a PSP but no money to buy one...... {-___-}
• No movie on screen.
• I haven't watch Ice Age 3.
• Horratio died in CSI????
• Really really missing Yvonne the Pikachu......
  
• I miss my classmates......
• MU slaughtered M'sia team! Hahaha!
• Dun know why so sudden I feel like seeing Cesar?
• My friends went to internships, really envy.
• I want to learn MAYA but later have to learn from the beginning...... Making lotz of problems......
• I'm being random again......
  

Making Chibi Ver of BAA Friends!!

Ok, so I finally made up m mind to create a series of Chibi ver of BAA friends! Haha, the idea been in my mind for so long! But things (lots of unexpected issues) interrupted me from making this production. Hmm...... It seems that the one and only problem I'm facing now is to decide the design of each character. The idea is to make each of my classmates (maybe not everyone) into Chibi (also known as big head small body ver) and give them a job like those in FF. Currently, I only made up my mind of making Steff in witch form. Kinda cute but weird most of the time (I mean my ideas). So, I'm looking for suggestions and maybe wishes from my friends, what will be their desired jobs and appearances. Haha, however, the finalized idea will be mine to be decide!

*For example:
Logan:" neil, I want to be a Dragon Knight! Make me look awesome please!"
Neil:" Ok! No prob!"

...... ended up......
Neil:" Hey, Logan, I done yours!"
Logan:" Yeah...... Ercha, what the? Logan The Barbarian?"
Neil:" Yes, I think it suits you!"
Logan:" You Bloody......"

The happening of such situation is almost absolute!

Materialistic

The day before yesterday, I decided to go Sungei Wang with one of my best friends. It was kind of sudden as we made the decision without further thinking of why we actually want to go Sungei Wang and believe it or not, we made the decision in the midnight and we departed right after we get out from out bed in the morning of 2nd of July. Lol......

Well, I can say the whole point of going Sungei Wang was just to go out and eat some nice foods and buy some figurings to decorate our long bored life. So, rapid...... monorail...... walk...... kinda lost after so many m0nths without coming to this area. Ok, we made our way to Sungei Wang safely. The first thing we did was to eat at the rooftop hawker center. After indulged in Desa food for so long, I made my order like hell as to release my anger toward the bloody old BOTAK TAUKE of Desa Canteen!

Later, we went window shopping at some models shops. I saw lots of new shops in Sunge Wang selling all sorts of good stuff! I saw few Spawn figures which I used to see on old magazine. hundred for each and collecting six of them will be able to combine one gigantic big ass spawn. Cool! Too bad, it's way out of my budget...... My friend was targeting on Totoro figures which are kinda rare at present. I was aiming on Aliens figures which I used to see a lot around such area.

It was so suffering just to travel from shop to shops! I saw lots of new goodies and I was interested in most of them. A shopkeeper offered me a damn nice price for 2 S.I.C. Kamen Rider figures which I really really want to own! However, I rejected him gentlely as my wallet just cannot tahan the price (though it was dirt cheap). Finally, we made our way from Sungei Wang to Time Square. We get into the Grafiti and i finally saw my aliens figures!!!!

The good news is, there were some new stock in and new models were out; the bad news is, they were way so expensive...... DAMN IT! I stared on the boxes for maybe half an hour, ended up leaving the shop with no plastic bags...... I decided not to buy...... not to use my mum's money...... My heart was so pain even until now...... If only I can go for a part time job this holiday, I will have that Alien figure for sure...... Bloody LIMKOKWING dudes never fix the school date making me cannot apply any part time job!!!!!

I saw so many models around and I just couldn't afford even a single one of them. I feel so down now...... I also saw PSP price dropped to RM 699! Still, it doesn't change anything...... I just bought a PC and I really cannot do another "mum, I need......". Haiz...... I so sad and emo now.

I just notice how untidy I typed this journal...... Well, who cares...... Noone going to read it afterall......

Michael Jackson Is No More......

I saw the news of MJ passed away this afternoon and like most of you, I couldn't believe the news at all! I was never a super fan of him, but I am depressed as to see this black in white genius is no more on the stage...... Such a waste...... I will miss his songs for sure and of course his moonwalk......

Another Anime Base Movie...... =_=

BLOOD: The Last Vampire

BLOOD: The Last Vampire...... If you are a Otaku or maybe 1/2 Otaku, then you should had heard of this animated feature before. Yes, it is the real life movie of this anime and guess what? It's a Hollywood style of movie! For fans of the anime, it is a good news to them as this feature finally got itself a chance to be brought on big screen; however, it is also a bad news as anime based movies ain't always as good as the original features.

To me, I never like anime or cartoon based movie (well, maybe some). I can't say why, but at the very least of my demand, such movie attract only hardcore fans or the related fans. Well, let's not talk about that. It's not fair for an individual to speak for the whole.

So, BLOOD: The Last Vampire...... Erm...... How should I put this...... It's not an awesome movie with visual effects to compete with Transformers. The CG animated elements cast the shadow of the Japaness style. LOL, the CG monsters ain't fitting the environment! I just cannot understand, if they couldn't succeed the CG quality, why in the hell they inject such "failure" into the movie? They should have replace the CG with monster suits and make up. The winged monster was a disaster! Me and my friend commented the cheap monster design like hell! I'm not going to tell you how ugly it is, u will have to see it yourself if you really wish to find out! On the poster, it was stated "From the makers of Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon and Hero". Yeah, like hell it was the action! I can only say the martial art of the Heroine was nothing more than camera effects! Everything looked too fake and cheap to be a Hollywood style movie! SHIT!

Things which I like about this film are the environments and the emotion. Though I understood the environments were polished and tinted during the post production, I just couldn't comment anything on them! I love the overall emotion of the film. I could feel the evilness within the story, and it was awesome! Things ain't clean in the movie and the stained set ups were cool and suited the story. If only this movie was granted a higher budget and handled by a better production team with a better martial art director, BLOOD: The Last Vampire will definitely have a higher potential of become a blockbuster before the arrival of Transformer 2.

I'm blurring......

Holiday just started and my assignments were all gone, along with my 3rd semester of animation...... Currently, I'm a bit blur and mindless as I do not know where to work on and how should I start...... Part time seems a bit too unrealistic to me as I am not sure when will the school starts and how well can I focus on the work. Bloody LIMKOKWING dudes never announce the actual date of the school start! Everyday seems to be too boring and rather meaningless to me. I am so used to the tight schedule and heavy loaded assignments, therefore, "free" seems to be too stranger to me. I can't really calm myself. I always feel like doing something but always ended up doing nothing! Maybe, I just need a command from someone, "alright, I want u to do......". You know? Those kind of motivation given by somebody better and upper than you!

I guess, I just can't suit the life of being free and goalless...... I'm lost......

However, I do feel a bit better as such holidays made me feel lighter and...... well, you should be able to understand those kind of feeling if you are/were a student! ---w---.

REST AND SHIT!

After all of those mind cracking and fingers breaking assignment, I finally reach the oasis of a short break as there will be no more works in the coming two months! Yeepee! Seriously, days with no work and "sleep + eat + sleep + eat" life is tremendously awesome! LOL!

Sorry for not typing any thing on this blog for almost a month or more! It was because of my stupid MTV animation! Honestly, I really dislike my own MTV animation! Why? People asked me lotz of time and I always answer them, "it wasn't what I wanted to create!"

Truthfully, I made this MTV only to fulfill the module requirement. U see, we got lotz of works to deal with in this short and cramped semester...... And so at the very beginning of the semester, I decided to sacrifice one of my module to ensure I get to manage my 3D module and make a splendid result for it. I wonder if I made it......

At first, I choose to sacrifice my typography as I thought it was going to be one of the dullest module ever in this sem. But, things changed as I got addicted to After Effect and could not control myself from investing both time and mind on the final of the typography. Haiz...... at the end, I picked my MTV...... I can't really explain why and how I did it so bad, but from the very beginning of the production, my original concept was not there! Time and pressure driven me crazy and forced me to come out with some stupid idea of making a cartoon! SHIT! I hate my MTV!

It's quite useless and dump to actually admit what I had done...... But at least I feel better to tell someone...... or maybe no one since there's rarely any people to pay attention on my blog......

I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!

SERIOUSLY! I can't take it anymore!

I'm over stressed and really want to stop and rest!!!!!!!

Too many things to be processed and yet too little time for me to perfect everything! The lecturers are demanding too many from us! TOO MANY!! How come BAA students have to suffer that much! We need life too!! I sacrificed most of my time for assignment and yet there's still too little time for me to work! WHY! Extension please!!!!

Color and Shadow

This is simply how I feel when I'm in crowds. We have different color but we cast the same shadow......

My Class! Part B

Well, lets talk bout my class again. Well, we have Logan our "chocolate man" or "Mr.Black" or wat ever comes wif black issue. Lol, it's not tat I try to be racist, he himself is somehow enjoyed in such titles. He is a pro in lotz of stuff. I mean lotz because he can perform awesome street dance, voice over for funny characters, draw nice, stylish, own a nice cool bike, a pro in basket ball and lotz. I enjoy to play around wif him coz it's funny to have him around. Did I mention he's black? Lol, he's actually kind cool and fair in how he is now and I can hardly find any weakness of him except he's losing confidence lately. I hope he get well soon and perform just as awesome as he was in previous sem. I really like his style of drawing which I can never archieve.

Amanda, a.k.a Panda in the class. She got the title because she can basically sleep in watever situation even when she's driving. We got into an accident on previous sem because she fell asleep while driving and our car turn 180 degree before it stopped. Lol, it was a scary yet fun experience! We didn't blame her coz we all know the initial cause of this accident...... She's the one u won't like to mess wif...... When I say it, I mean it! She can be as innocent as an angel but also a devil if u mess wif her. Scarry...... But, deep in her heart, she's still a lovely and harmless panda.

Ernie is a nice guy to everyone! He's very helpful and sometimes over helpful. Lol, he's always there to be a driver for most of us. He fetch us here and there without saying a word. I salute him deep in my heart. Well, I know very little about him, but he is a guy who you will be happy to have him around in all sort of occassion. He luv things most pople luv and has a really mass collection of both art books and toys (though I had not seen them yet). He always has his cap on which somehow became his very identical symbol. This dude luv cross, and he basically use crosses on most of his design, which I think it's nice since we all have our very own identity.

TG, the computer man. People named him tat way because he always does stuffs related to PC. I knew him since 1st sem of foundation. Well, he's a nice dude, but barely stick around wif the gang. He kinda silent in class and not really obvious to be notice. Nowaday, people call him Digi instead of TG, and I think tat suits him well since it sound more cyber! HAHAHAHA!

To be continue......

I'm Missing Seremban......

I felt bad for not celebrating mother day wif mum...... Though I know she was not available during that particular day but, seeing most of my friends to be able to celebrate along wif their mum made me really envy.

Well, it was all because of me as I really could not spare any time for event like tis......

Man...... I miss Seremban and my favorite wantan mee...... I miss mum's coffee and lots of stuffs! Really want to end the semester soon and go back to eat and sleep.

Damn, I'm posting random stuff again...... -_-

My Studio Ghibli Logo

Lol, this my one of my try to make a logo animation for Studio Ghibli. I'm doing a title sequence animation for Laputa~Castle in the Sky. Now I'm still struggling to make some really stunning effect which is so gonna kill me if I can't ready it before this sunday......

Haiz, why animation students suffer so much! GOD! Please help on me! I need more time!

I'M BERSERKING!

This should explain how I feel now......

I'm a LEGENDARY DARK KNIGHT!!!!

My IDOL ~ Dante!!! Gorgeous! I'll be considering to be a gay just for him! Just Kidding!

Haha, I finally finished Devil May Cry 4 Legendary Dark Knight Mode! Wohoo! I'm tough! Hahaha! It was so nice tat the game made you feel like playing Dynasty Warrior saja! So many bad ass for you to kick and screw! Haha! Those overwhelming monster scenes were so excited and nice to kick ass! Haha! Dante is still the best! Wonder how will DMC 5 be like?

First Time in Video Shooting! (not really in action yet)

Well, few days ago I was assigned by my dearest insane and hentai friend Eichi to participate in one of her video shooting for an assignment. I had never been into such activity before, and I was of coz bloody excited and kinda looking forward to it.

And so, I dragged one of my friends, Jade to come along with me so she can blend in more wit my present society (included Zeraato as well). Lol, it was a long journey from Desa to Damansara, but that's alright for me since I was really looking for a reason to get out from my assignment at home. Well then, me met and gather then bla bla bla and bla even more.

Eichi took pictures of us in the scenes and left the video shooting on this coming Saturday. It was a crowded day and too many people around eventually made our shooting even harder. Haiz, what a day!

Lol, guess what's my role? It's a snatcher. Yes, a bloody perverted snatcher! Hahaha, I was kinda enjoying the role! Hahaha, you think it was embarrassed enough? Robin get a even worse role, a ghost! LOL!

Well, I was very much enjoying it except that I had to sacrifice one of my working day for this event...... Kinda sad, but I dun care at all! Coz I luv to lol and random around places I seldom go! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

MY BRO 19th BIRTHDAY!!!!

YEPEE! Today is my bro 19th birthday! Yahoo! Celebrate! Celebrate!

Oh...... He's not in M'sia...... Guess this will be his first birthday without direct greets from our family. But it's also the first birthday he ever had in Japan! O~ME~TE~TO, konoyaro! Hahaha, wonder if I write it correctly!

So, what should I give you anyway? Hm...... In terms of all sort of otakus loving stuff you will eventually get them from akinabara...... Foods might be too hard to give to you......

Nah! I'll just draw something for you! Spmething really simple! Hahahaha!

So, stay tune! one of these few days I'm so gonna make something for you!

My Class! Part A

Lol, this is the first time I'm going to share my class people info on net! Hahaha!

First of all, I think I'm in the world most interesting class where there are lotz of funny dudes and jokers around to keep me company! I just lov them so much as they are so crazy and random like I am. Well, few of them are actually far crazier than I do......

Alright, first of all, I'll introduce Robin a.k.a Camel in the class. He's been my great friend and rival ever since foundation year of my university study life. Well, he has potential and patience in doing almost anything! Oh, did I mention he's the super joker in our class? This fellow will basically do anything just to drag your attention...... Funny yet hardcore he is. I can say he's a mirror to me as we are total different person in both personality and mental thinking. Sometimes, this dude is needed to be blasted so he can shut down his joker mode.

Then, we have Stef a.k.a Aunty for me. She's the most kind hearted person ever in this class...... I mean, she likes to protect helpless animal and so do human?! Being Robin's girlfriend, I can hardly imagine how she suffers in her life. To be a toy of a super hardcore dude like Robin is just as suffering as eating wasabi nonestop twenty four seven......

Fitri, a.k.a Matsuoamon, my favourite teddy in class! Haha, this fellow is always nice to touch and bully! Once you try and you will get addicted to it! He's one of the superman in our class who can handle almost all kind of software and downloads free stuffs for the class! The savior of mine when I meet dead end in my study and works! This dude has a brilliant way of working which eventually makes him one of the top in class! Lol, I just love to hug and touch this chubby friend of mine! ^^

Then, we have Brennan a.k.a Zeraato. This guy is an "English MAN". Trust me, you can basically count on him on all sort of language help...... He is a hardcore painter follower...... He hates Adobe and always badword my favorite Photoshop! But, it's quite ironic since this fellow was the guru who drag me into this software! I don't want to elaborate too much on this guy since I might get screwed right after I publish this post...... I hope he doesn't check on my blog!

To be continue......

I'm Becoming Lazy!!!! HELP!!!!!!

HELP!!!!!! I'm becoming lazy!!!

I can feel my body getting lazy! I could even sleep for 12++ hours! OH SHIT! I know it gonna be worse than this! HOLLY!

轰轰烈烈的四月！

轰轰烈烈的四月！唉，功课功课，都是功课！难得的假期却搞到天天蹲家陪电脑！不是3D就是动画，想出街也不得不延后！没了健康，赔了青春，又活得不自在，天天好像丧尸打字！

我的哎哟喂呀！救命哪！

Some REALLY LOL Pics -w-

Whoever it is, you miss placed one piece of your jigsaw puzzle!

Even GOD has his anger......

Holly Mother of Nature!

Cool bag! Isn't it?

Beware of where you going to put your butt on......

Dude, what's your eyes prob?

He might be planning for a hair cut......

Soon, we will see no blue sky with shinning sun......

I'm sure this is from Laden to Bush

A Break......

A break...... Finally a break......

I'm Back to Seremban......

After almost two months away from home, I finally got my ass back to Seremban. The same smell and atmosphere...... I just can't say what the hell is this kind of relieving feel...... I see my little puppy grows into a gorgeous beast! Lol, it looks so much like those wolf from Mononoke Hime! Mum's cooking is nice and tasty as usual. I just can't resist my big old smelly bed and after a few days of none stop working, I finally get to rest on this super cozy thingy. I love my Seremban!

I DID IT!!!

YES! I did it! Wohoo! I did it!

Tired......

I've been working for few days or maybe weeks without having proper sleep...... I can feel that my body is sending me an alert signal as I can hardly focus my vision on things surrounded me. I always work in such manners, not just because I'm rushing for the assignments but it was more toward my own satisfaction. Ok, I know I can't blame anyone as it was my own decision to work in such way! However, I feel great when I show people about my works! Asking for people's opinions is one of my own way to improve myself. And so, my house mates always become my target......

Lol, I just love the feeling of "it's done"! It is so much satisfied to see my own hard work comes into shape! Oh, I'm posting this only because of somebody fired on me and pissed me off only because I full blasted myself just to finish one simple exercise. It was his own fault as he did not work hard enough on that work, and I felt humiliated since there was no reason for him to piss on me just because I did better than him. What a shame!

A Gorilla Walk Cycle

This is one of the first few animation I did on this semester which I also think it's up to my current level requirement. Most of my classmates did better than mine as they...... Haha, but I really like this animation since I worked too much on it and almost fainted just to do the looping background. I feel so satisfied as I preview it with my monster screen!

Now still got lots of works to work on...... Since I decided to do something people would probably not to attempt on...... First, a gorilla, then a wyvern...... Wonder what I'm gonna come out with...... T_T

I'm the one who making myself suffer......

I'm Losing Mood(s)

I wonder why and how...... I'm losing mood to do whatever works and even entertainments. I can hardly feel any motivation within me which usually would drive me crazy to do all sort of works and even to perfect them. I hate this kind of time when you can hardly focus on works and kept having mind wandering somewhere else. I'm being random and now having a hard time to do the coloring for one of my assignments. Lol, I feel so drowsy and emo...... Somebody please slap me up and knock on my stubborn skull......

Life Goes On and Sails to an Unknown Harbour......

It's been a while since I last updated my blog. I was being sad and emo through out the past few weeks. Everything seems to be over sucking false as lots of shits happened in my life. I can't say I'm totally recovered from the situation, but at least somebodies in my life cheered me up and granted me some confidences in order to move on. I was having lots of problems and finally some were managed to be solved while other remained just as suck as they were. Life sucks......

Time passed too fast in my world. Soon, I'm going to have a mid term break for this semester and I never like it as it resembles nothing but a faster beat of life. I have so many to do but with so few time left. This is just too ironic...... as I still prefer to work with full blast on each works but limited time chained me and reduced my productivity. I just hate to have such a short semester. If only we have three semester in this bloody school!

Soon or late, I'm so gonna to have a mental failure since I can't really control my own schedule of both work and life...... Wonder where will I end up be at......

Bad Days......

It's seems like my bad days have not yet gone and worst thing happens as my new PC 'Frankenstein' does not response to any of my action. This is so sucks! First the schollarship then PC who knows what's gonna comes next? Maybe I'll get hitted by a car...... Hope it won't happen......
My life is always filled with bad luck...... Every time I thought things going to be better and it will turn very ugly and make my life sucks and FUCK UP! I just want a simple life and so far I experience lots and lots of hardships! Family, works, accessories, financial, friendships and even my health......

This world is so bloody FUCK UP and always gives me trouble and lotz of lotz of shit! I just hate this era and wish to go back to 90's where I find most wonderful things in my life...... Someone please help me and pull me out of this bloody shit hole!

I'm Just a Fool......

I'm failed...... Being so useless and yet arrogant toward it......
As if the sky is falling...... Nothing seems to be colorful...... Nothing seems to be cheerful......
Wish to cry it out but the strength was not there to push it up......
The mask of the fool is too heavy to be hang on......
The fake smile of mine is a burden to this body......
I blame no one......
It was my fault...... my own fault......

May be I was not good enough...... there's why I failed......
All this time, I've been a fool in the circus......

Animation Night......

It's animation night... again...... To me nights like this are very awful. I'm doing a four legged animal walk cycle animation. It's never easy to do animation. No matter how easy it may seems to be, an animation takes time to perfect it. Moreover, such job for amateur like me is always exhausted. I choose to make a gorilla walk cycle inspired by Tarzan's poster. Lol, so random......

The time is 5:32 and there's still 6 more frame to go...... I have to hang on and finish it before I sleep......

Lone

It's been a while since I last have such feeling since my life is always filled with laughs and cares from friends. Few of my friends went back hometown to spent their weekend there and somehow recharge themselve by eating hometown foods. Me as usual choose to stay in the hostel since work is the main thing for me to concern. Sorry mum and poor Tommy, gotta leave you guys for another few weeks. Now my unit left only me and another...... whose name must not be spoken...... (lol)

I went shopping alone yesterday. Somehow I quite enjoying it as I'm those kind of people who plan before act and so I get to finish my business in a real fast time. I spend almost hundred ringgit during the shopping. Here's the list of things which I bought:

1. 40$ for a new 4G thumb drive
2. 31$ for a few pirated Horror movie DVDs
3. 30$ for two new clothes

*And 9.70$ for a finger licking meal. Sure u know what it was. XD

I seldom shopping alone, but I did that from time to time. It seems to be boring but it's nice to do so if you need to have a private time to be alone. Sometimes I even get random and useful inspiration while doing so. Lol, few of my friends laugh at me for being lone ranger! Haha, it's quite true though. Since I have no girl friend, I have no worry of choosing foods to eat, movie to watch, stop by kedai baju for half an hour...... and etc. I mention this coz I pity one of my friends who have no freedom at all during shopping and dating time! Poor dude! His girlfriend is over controlling him! Single is somehow a kind of happiness too! Single BANZAI!

Today is White Day. Very few people remember such day. Haha, I got neither present nor chocolate from anyone and so I have no worry of repaying! I remembered it because I randomly browsed XXXHolic manga and saw one of the chapter. It's about white day...... Lol, random I am. (lol)

Dad been missing for few weeks...... Wonder where and how he is......

New Face For Header

A New Sky

It's been a while since I last edit my Blog Header. Just woke up from my bed and decided to do something else then work. This time it's going very digital. It's to symbolize a new start in the world of digital, no more manual...... Haha, I know the design is not red! Well, u see sky is not gonna be just blue and white all the time sometimes it's red or grayish. For mine...... well, you may say that I kinda switching my world to a rather open world. Blue symbolizes hope and future in some culture. It's one of my favorite colors and I think it suits my blog well.

Hope you guys like it and thanks for the supports eversince I started this blog.

The Fork

A Fork

A fork...... Yes it's just a regular fork. A simple and normal fork which I did using 3Ds Max, the latest software I learned from the school. It was a bit hard to do since I'm a total idiot toward this software. Due to the lack of knowledge, I cracked my head just to do the bending part. Lol, it seems that getting pics from net was not enough and so I used a real fork (Stella's fork) as reference. This is not much different from regular life drawing...... except there's no pencils and papers.

I do not dare to render this tiny fellow as my Nao Nao is not really up to the standard of taking such heavy duty. Li-jean managed to get a new com within 3.5k...... so envy...... Must get a new com soon. The pressures are coming from various modules and I can certainly feel them heavying my shoulder. Gotta roll up my wheels before the weight crushes my brain......

Bro recommended me a nice song and I'm currently spamming it twenty four seven both PC and MP3. It's a theme song the anime Bokurano, Uninstall by Chiaki Ishikawa. Haven't watch or heard of that anime. Might be some new realeased......

She Reminded Us Code Geass......

As usual, we had dinner and gathering after the class. CK's class was as funny and cheerful as always. That guy is a genius of random. We had dinner at Hassan since that's the only place we spent for worthy foods and drinks. Jade somehow was forced to join us for the dinner. I'm not sure she was really wanting for it or just relucantly join the dinner since she had to follow our transport. Hassan is all about Nasi Briyanni for me as I really like the taste of the yellowish rice. We finished the foods real fast and stuffed our tummies until overloaded.

Chit chat, blah blah blah and blah...... We talked craps. We told Jade lotz of funny stuff about Malaysian since she barely know us. It's quite hard for a Shanghai Girl to blend in the society and so we started the introduction from foods which was to eat at local restaurant. She was somehow disappointed by the foods since they were not as spicy as she thought. On the way home, we mention animes and the four Otakus became hyper active and talked none stop. She then randomly mentioned Code Geass and asked our favourite characters in the series. The subject reminded me of the happy five Desa dudes on previous sem. Code Geass was one of the favourited subjects of conversation. My nose somehow felt sour as I really miss those days......

Wonder how Pikachu and that Gunpla Freak doing......

A Very Weird Time for Class =___=lll

Currently, I'm typing right in front of my Nao Nao (my laptop lah). Just done the 3D modeling for my Boeing 747 plane. Really have no mood to school since it's a late class starts at five. Wonder which idiot planned such schedule? The stormy sky made me sleepy...... Really don't want to go school......

Just downloaded the first part of Princess Mononoke. I know I have a DVD copy of it but just want to get a softcopy for the purpose of collecting. Lol, this is so lame. My posts are getting borer and borer. Somebody stop me!!

The Same Feel......

I'm lost in ideas... I mean lots of ideas! I always face such as I always have many interesting ideas but have very limited chance to execute them. Feel so bad for dumping them...... It's hard to choose one over another and indeed I wish to work them out and show the lecturers all my crazy ideas. Feeling emo now as I have to sacrifice few of my ideas due to the lack of my skill...... I'm blaming myself for knowing so few and so dumb! Must learn harder and do better this sem......

NO NET AGAIN!!!!

Konata Back In Action!

Again, the people in A-02-02 suffered in life with no net and entertainment from the world wide web! This is so sucks!!! I know I just commented the poor service of the MyKris company but this time it's way too far coz it's been four and a half day with no proper internet service. I missed lotz of comments and messages in both Deviant Art and my lovely Blog! This is so pissed off!

Ok, forget bout the suck service and let's move on to another rather happy subject. Me and my housemates celebrated Quinn's birthday just 24 hours ago. She was rather surprised to see so many people surrendered the area (I guess). Haha, we gave a huge and chocoly cake and a big white bag as presents! I can't say it's a super nice birthday, but at least it's a lovely birthday 'party". The only thing messed up the party was the gore and scary subjects which I brought out during the chit chat time. Guess I watched too much gore and scary movie...... =___=lll

Anyway, Happy Birthday Quinn! And wish the internet recovers A.S.A.P! Few hours ago, I unseal the Konata Figma box and took out my long sealed Figma and give it a weird pose. She's now happily standing next to my laptop and cheerfully make the atmosphere of my room lighter and more hentai(?). I guess I just being random. Screw that Meatball Machine, shouldn't have watch it.

NO NET!!!!

After two and a half days with no internet, we finally see the Login Page reappeared on our monitor faithfully asking for our loggin IDs and Passwords! Yahoo! My lovely blog! Feel so nice to post again!

I had a tired week (not really a week since there's still few days left for it), it was all about works and 3D modeling. Lol, it was tough to learn but somehow quite interesting to see things flip and rotate around. Haha, I built a bench and few random stuffs using 3Ds Max! Each took me few hours to complete since I'm really a newbie to this software. Thanks MatsuoAmon for giving me the software copy! Me really need it!

Now, I have to get back to the Logo Design since I did a pretty bad job for it. Illustrator, here I come!!!!!!

Mind Map

It's been a long time since I last made a mind map. I always find it hard to make one nice and "completed" (in all sort of meaning) mind map. Well, there it goes again, I made a simple and "all about me" mind map just for the sake of submission. It's pretty lame though, but every statement there is true and obvious (if you know me). I won't say much about this mind map since it's too simple and anyone can read it (if you went through minimum of 11 years of Malaysia education system).


Recently, I just found out that how poor I am in language...... Wish to improve by reading more books and blogs. Hahaha, guess that will fill up my emptiness as well!

It's All About Food!

*Please be aware that this post is not halal! So MatsuoAmon should not read this.

Haha! Today is a day of PORK!

After three hours of locking ourselves in a dark room with only CPUs and monitors displaying 3ds Max control panel and thousand of polygons, my stomach roar in a hungry tune. So right after the class, Zeraato suggested to have PORK (the most holly food in every Desarian's mind) as our dinner. Hurray! Screw Desa foods! Me had PORK today! Hahahahahaha!

We arrived at 大家乐 hawker center around 7. Took our order and rushed to a empty seat and wait hungrily for our foods. Mine came first. The PORK Mee was awesome! The soup was great and the PORK made me feel happy and alive! I was having the most luxurious meal since I came to Desa this semester. Then, both Zeraato's and ChibiChibiZero's BAKUTTEH came. They were jumping around to see that amount of PORK in the bowl. Hahahaha! Poor Zeraato, before he could put a slice of PORK into his mouth, he saw some suspicious thingies floating in the oily soup. Mm...... Those were mushrooms. =.=lll

He gave up on that bowl of nice PORK since he allergic toward mushrooms. Hahahaha! Which means me and ChibichibiZero got to share his stuff! Nice PORK! He later order KuehTiow and PORK Porridge for himself. I can see he was so frustrated and pissed off by that bowl of BAKUTTEH!

Me had a nice day of PORK and I'm happy and satisfied for that!

Steamboat

Steamboat~ I had a nice steamboat meal for my dinner few hours ago! It was a nice meal since I get to see lotz of people (mostly girls) to gather around my place and had a good meal. I wasn't the one to prepare the stuff so I pretty much just doing nothing there and wait for the "chef" to call me up.

We used to have a steamboat party one and half years ago for the open house of our ex-unit, C-06-13A. I kind of miss that unit...... Lotz of memory in that place. But never mind, I got a new room now and I dominating it! Haha! Single room rules!

Mmm...... Where was I? Oh, the steamboat! Haha, I wasn't able to enjoy the meal totally since I keep giving the ladies priority to take the food. Well, I wasn't care about that. The greatest pleasure of having steamboat is to share the food and chat randomly to each other. So, don't mind, don't mind!

Later, I went out YUM CHA with a big bunch of people and a new comer of my class. Jade from Shang Hai, an interesting girl to join the group. Since we lost two fellows of the YUM CHA gang, she sure came in time to fill out the position. I've been having a hard time to curl up my tounge and speak in China Style Mandarin. Lol, that's fun!

In conclusion, I had a nice a wonderful night of Steamboat and Ice Coffee!